I just wanted to post a little more. I have’t posted in a while, but I feel that I need to get some things off my chest. I don’t really know what to say but this is from a suggestion on writing about traumatic experiences of which I have had one recently, and think it needs to be explored further. Hopefully, this will help.

To start off with I was sitting at home one day when some awfully strange things started to happen. I was sitting on my couch when an odd, hallucinogenic feeling came over me and the room started to change color. I was asleep and when I woke up I felt the whole room had changed color into this fluorescent white light, which seemed to be glowing off the walls. The paint was even different as if it had magically been affected by someone outside the building. I am not sure what it was but the feeling of being stuck inside a heroine den definitely hit me and it felt like my couch and transported into cement bags. I had to leave and kill myself I don’t know why. I think I will be writing more about this in future posts but I am just doing an initial draft for the first time.

I actually drove away from my apartment to a gas station and bought some anti-freeze which I then took to a park and drank in the evening hours to end my life. I am not exactly sure what happened or the time line of it all but I ended up pulling into a different gas station half drunk off of the chemicals and being arrested for drunk driving. I passed out the the police station and they rushed me to the hospital where I was supposedly in a coma for two weeks. I am not sure of all the details but I will continue to flesh this out little by little in the hope that this is cathartic in nature. I haven’t written about this experience yet as of January 2016 but these events must have happened in late 2013 and it took me about a year to recover. I have seen multiple doctors, specialists and psychiatrists for my condition but have not really seen the issue clear up as of yet. Hopefully, there is more to come and I won’t be feeling so under the weather after some of this writing. Thanks for reading and that’s all.